Let me just jump right in...
I often do not feel like I am doing enough. I wonder, do I need more? I ask if I could be doing something better or different that it is best suited to all of our needs.
I wonder is being a mother enough? Is being a wife enough?
Are my abilities to do the things that I do enough?
It is natural to question these things. I think we all do it. No matter what stage in life we are in or what our goals and paths may be.
I've been reassuring myself, that YES it is enough. I have a list hidden in the bottom of my mom-stuff check lists, meal plan sheets, shopping lists, homeschooling notes, and other such things that reminds me of all the things that I do.
Those things are enough.
I'm not working outside the home but I am more than accomplishing a full time job at home.
My children appreciate their favorite clothes being washed and dried and ready to wear again. Just today I heard an exclamation of excitement come from my littlest child, *gasp* You washed my shirt! OH Thank you Momma!" and my heart melts. Last week Cambria shouted out, "YAY!" at her stack of clean dresses. When did this happen, when did my kids suddenly become so appreciative!?
Or was I so irritated or maybe just bored in the past with these tedious things I failed to notice or allow room for such happiness to ensue?
When I do what I do in love and care I reassure myself that what I am doing is truly worth feeling complete with. When I cook I do so with care and understanding that my family needs proper nutrition and I am meeting those needs!That's pretty awesome and I'm not trying to make a bigger deal out of the small things either. I'm extremely passionate about healthy eating and lifestyle so that's actually a big one for me. Meal planning and cooking for maximum nutrition and digestive qualities is enough.
When I am busy day-to-day raising my kids I'm doing exactly what I need to be doing. We're doing activities and reading books together. Searching the internet for answers and living life together. I am here to guide my children and to learn with them. I don't want to control them or live a stressed out life. It takes a lot of balancing and communication and respect to maintain the life I want with my family. It is totally worth it. This time last year I couldn't have imagined our life as it is now. This too is enough.
Forward motion. Always.
And then I try to maintain my sense of me at the end, in the wee hours of the morning. With straining eyes and stumbling fingers, I try to press on to read ONE more article. To watch one more educational video or research the nutrient content of ... mangoes. After I have inevitably learned what foods not to eat with mango.
Some days I like to shut it all down. On those days, I'm doing what I need to do for my soul. For my kids, because sometimes a mom just needs to stop and smell the roses. It is enough.
Whatever you do is enough too! Even when you're still working toward goals and even if you're not where you want to be yet. Forward motion.
You are enough.